is really a fear, a phobia, of not living up to your own inflated expectations,
I think you might be right: the only real solution is to abandon frustration
and perhaps emotion altogether and approach the problem analytically. Through a cognitive wrestling and iterative
solution finding, one might begin to find confidence and inspiration
again. I fully intend to stare
down the Repeater this weekend.
The solution to my problem, as it is to so many others, is to just do
it. No Nike jokes, please.
to some of the non-topic elements of my first post, I’d still love to find out
more about Gareth Williams, an absolute mystery man—nothing on the web about
him. And please do stop by the
IUMA site linked below. I’d love
to be stroked through this crisis of faith with nice comments about the music I
have been able to accomplish.
left of eliot
From: Liebig, Steuart A.
Sent: Friday, January 25, 2002
Subject: RE: Ableton Live a
this may not be what
you're thinking about . . .
when i get frustrated by
my "limitations" and ruts in composing (or playing for that matter),
i try to assign myself a task that is counter to that which i normally do
(e.g., i'm writing too much of "x," i should try "-x"; or
i'm playing too many notes, i should play only slow note values with lots of
space in between . . . )
but maybe this is not a
fruitful tangent on your comment . . .
this is what scares me.....composition seems to become more dependent on the
depth of my programs (almost "chance" composition) than on my own
ability to work with notes, sounds, the building blocks of music.....how often
do i compose a 6/8 waltz as compared to a 4/4 groove?....i do not mean this as
any kind of slam, i would love to get lost in the never ending options
available in all these cool sounding programs, my major concern for
"myself" is, can i call the end product of sending a loop from my
rang thru a bunch o filters etc. a "composition"? its more like an
unrepeatable event.....i feel like the kid in the candy store who ate one too
many bon-bons after a knob twisting session.....perhaps its the word
"composition" thats got me befuddled.....i was just thinking the
other day "i hate my music in fact i hate all music" i want a new
drug!.....but for the life of me i couldnt find anything to replace the
"music" (whatever that is) with.....maybe exercise.....nahhh....:)m
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