Re: Instant Composition

[Mikkoz <biffoz@gmail.com>]

Being conscious of one's intent and actions can help progression, but another question? 

Why play for anyone, anywhere? If a musician / artist / player / shaman
states, "I play for myself and don't consider the audience at
all."  What is the reason for the performance? Personal pleasure /
Voyeurism (on the audience's part)?  No expectations at all? That
is rarely the case: I've found that even the most diehard artiste
usually has some expectation of themselves and their personal
experience as well as hopes that the audience has some desired
experience. Now we can ask why? Why the expectations?

I've asked myself this question many times in the last couple decades
and found myself lacking because I DO selfishly play (or used to) with
little regard for my audience. The longer I did this, the more
uncomfortable it felt until I actually had trouble constructing
sentences and began drooling too much to go out in public. 8-p 
The cure for me has been to play acoustic folk music and sing badly,
which has been quite liberating.

I DO desire recognition from my peers, but I now ask why? Community?
Ephipany? Comfort? Pleasure? Ego? Embarrassment? Dig deep enough and
the motivation can be troubling. It's always comforting to know people
"get it" but I've had some fundamental philosophical dilemmas which
discourage my enterprise and motivation. I mostly cease to care anymore
and just play to hear music for myself. I've come to find after much
personal inquiry, (and a good deal of interviewing others), that
motivation mostly comes from outside of the musical experience. "To get
laid", shallow as it sounds, actually makes a lot of sense.  *-)

On 11/19/08, Stefan Tiedje <stefantiedje@googlemail.com> wrote:

Raul Bonell schrieb:

   Composing is thinking about a form, just being aware of it. In the
   end you can't avoid it, at least in composition, as every piece has
   a beginning and an end...

so then, why give it a single thought?